Something God showed me today...

It doesn't matter why I made the decision I did. It doesn't matter that I miss you incredibly and that I'm hurting even more incredibly because of that decision. What matters is I made that decision and I can't change it. No matter how much I want to. No matter how much I am hurting or how much I miss you. I hurt both of us when I made that decision, but I still know that I made it not because it was a choice between right and wrong; but a choice between what was right and what was best. Even that doesn't matter. All that really matters is I made that decision, and it is something that I have to build a bridge and get over.

That doesn't change my feelings about the matter, it just means that I have to forgive myself for hurting us.

Dear Silver,

I admit it. I miss you. Since that day when I last saw you, you have been on my mind each and every day. It's not a distraction now like it used to be, but I still think back to the memories we made and smile; and sometimes cry for the same reasons. I know that God has his plans and for now that means you're far away again, and maybe we'll never see each other again in this life, but I'm sure that we will continue to meet in the Eucharist and in heaven.

I can't express just how torn I was and how much it hurt to tell you that I had to stay here, when originally we were going to continue on together. I know that one day you'll see that it has all been for the best, even though it hurts incredibly and I am missing you like I never thought I would.

For now, I am continuing on, not letting this all get in the way of what God has planned for me. I pray you are well and safe and that one day, we may see each other again. Even if we never see each other face to face again, I will continue to pray for you and your well-being.


Sometimes in life one has to make the hardest decisions and go against what they want in order to ensure the well-being of oneself and others. As much as I wanted to come with you, I knew it would be best for the both of us if I didn't. I pray you will see that in time.

May God continue to bless you in each and everyday!

The Catherine Tree