hmm...

Where to go from here? Looking at jobs in different towns and not knowing what is next. I don't even know where to start. Sometimes I think I want to go back to Brown City, then other times to go to Green city, sometimes to the Heritage city then other times to go to the old home town. Who knows? Will I be single? Where will I be living, working? Who will I visit in my spare time? Will I finally be able to get past the last of these crosses? I know I can't do anything without the Lord and I know he has a plan for me, but not knowing what is coming next is possibly the hardest thing for me to  deal with at this particular point in time. All of this uncertainty is certainly hard to deal with. I don't want to end up being depressed with no on e around me a regretting my life when I'm fifty.  I want my kids *if/ when I have them* to want to visit me and to enjoy my company. Most of all, I want to be able to stand up in front of God (when the time comes) and to be able to say "God, I lived my life the best I possibly could in my given circumstances and I lived it according to your will. I know that because I pray so much I shouldn't be so worried, but I am human and I'm far from perfect. Worrying about things makes me realise that I just need to trust and pray even more.

On a more positive note, things in this lovely little place are going quite well. More details to come.