A draft of what I may send. Feedback would be handy.

Silver Gnat*, I have to tell you something that's important. I have tried to make this disappear out of my mind and I have tried to just ignore it but it's come to a point for me where I don't know how much longer I can keep this from you. You may be wondering why facebook keeps changing how much you can see on my wall and why I have been acting strange. Why sometimes when we've been driving it's become really awkward. Why I picked on your anchor T-Shirt the first time I actually met you and later told you that I actually really like the shirt.Why I nearly dropped out of doing YOUNITE. Why I keep asking you if you're coming back soon. Why I won't accept your invitations to go over to SE-A. Why even though I've been worried about you and it's been driving me around the bend, I have been pretending that everything is ok and that whatever has been bothering me is miniscule. I mean I guess this type of situation is small, but when it has the possibility of changing life as I know it well then yeah, the situation is way more than that.

I know you're lost at the moment, I know that nothing seems to be working out for you and I know that coming back to Townsville at the moment is probably more daunting than moving back to the little town up north for you. Life is tough, especially when you're directionless and just praying that God might show you the way today. That life will be better soon. That someone will give you a chance to really let you show them just how well you CAN do. Silver Gnat, I want you to know that whatever happens, I will still be there for you whenever you need or want anything in God's name.

I am going to lay it out on the table. It's up to you what happens from here. I have feelings for you that I can't deny (trust me, I have tried to deny them, but even God won't let me!) I have felt this way for quite a while now and it tears me up inside because these feelings have come right at the time when I am perfectly happy to be single (but don't let that affect what you think or do about this.)

Please know that everything I have thought, said and done have all been with the intention of being a Christ-like sister to you; not for my own benefit at any stage and I have always prayed before, after (and often during) the times that I have spent with you.

I apologise for this.

*Name has been changed to the nickname I use for him on this blog.