Heart tells me I can be there for people, when they need or want; day or night. Whenever. Wherever.
Brain tells me I am capable, but not good enough for them; for anything.
Reality(?) tells me that I can try to help everyone else; but I'm stuck. I'm trying my best to be there for everyone else, and have done so for so long that I have forgotten how to actually look after myself; and in the process, forgotten how to help and care for the ones I'm closest to.
Heart tells me I have to get out, get exercise, lose weight, be who I want to be.
Brain tells me I'm not getting enough sleep. That I'm tired all of the time even though I've had more than enough sleep.
Reality tells me that I'm oversleeping because I can't get to sleep to begin with. I'm overcompensating for the failure of the rest of my life by sleeping too much once I do get to sleep.
Heart tells me to go for it. To build that relationship with him; the one that has been on and off in planning for years.
Brain tells me it's another risk. I could get hurt again and being hurt the way I am already isn't a good starting point. It's telling me I need to clear my mind, to get back to good. To be happy with myself again before I can expect to have anyone else love me for me.
Reality tells me that my brain is mostly right, but that I'm probably thinking too much and that I should just let it be.
My heart is with you, my brain is driving me crazy here fighting with my heart and reality is pushing it's disgusting path through my life; ruining every good thing that comes my way. Heart. Brain. Reality. Please find the center point of stabilisation between you, I don't know how much longer I can bare you three fighting. PS I missed two 11:11s on 11/11/11 on Australian time; I'm NOT going to miss either of them on NM time! <3 @ (R)
Brain tells me I am capable, but not good enough for them; for anything.
Reality(?) tells me that I can try to help everyone else; but I'm stuck. I'm trying my best to be there for everyone else, and have done so for so long that I have forgotten how to actually look after myself; and in the process, forgotten how to help and care for the ones I'm closest to.
Heart tells me I have to get out, get exercise, lose weight, be who I want to be.
Brain tells me I'm not getting enough sleep. That I'm tired all of the time even though I've had more than enough sleep.
Reality tells me that I'm oversleeping because I can't get to sleep to begin with. I'm overcompensating for the failure of the rest of my life by sleeping too much once I do get to sleep.
Heart tells me to go for it. To build that relationship with him; the one that has been on and off in planning for years.
Brain tells me it's another risk. I could get hurt again and being hurt the way I am already isn't a good starting point. It's telling me I need to clear my mind, to get back to good. To be happy with myself again before I can expect to have anyone else love me for me.
Reality tells me that my brain is mostly right, but that I'm probably thinking too much and that I should just let it be.
My heart is with you, my brain is driving me crazy here fighting with my heart and reality is pushing it's disgusting path through my life; ruining every good thing that comes my way. Heart. Brain. Reality. Please find the center point of stabilisation between you, I don't know how much longer I can bare you three fighting. PS I missed two 11:11s on 11/11/11 on Australian time; I'm NOT going to miss either of them on NM time! <3 @ (R)
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