Just a note:

To the two people who I haven't yet told out of Frog, Stallion, Antelope, Firefox, Wise One and Baffles, I am sorry. Very sorry indeed. I have been wanting to tell you both, I promise that with all my heart (and yes, the stick a pin in my eye rhyme applies here) I have wanted to... so, so badly. You guys deserve to know why. You have both had so much more going on in your lives these past few months, and I'm sure it would hurt you both further to know what has been going through my horrible mind. You guys have been through enough, I don't want to burden you with my issues as well, that would seem almost selfish. I think though, I have to tell you both soon. I can't keep this from you both forever and I'm pretty sure at least one of you has begun to see past the facade I've had up these last few months. I don't want to hurt anymore; but I'd rather remain hurt than to see either of you two lovely ladies hurt more than you already are. My heart goes out to the two of you! You two give me hope beyond what anyone else has been able to give. You guys know me better than anyone and you don't deserve to have me hide this from you; but you also don't deserve to be worrying about me whilst you have enough of your own to deal with.

On another note: I started making positive musical playlists today in the hope that it will improve my mood slowly, on a day to day (In an almost indetectable way.) I want to be happy, so why does my brain keep telling me that I should have no hope, that I shouldn't be happy... It isn't fair (but then again, what in life truly is?)